*Day 1: Something You Hate About Yourself *

     I hate the never-ending cycles of catch up, crash and burn, fall behind, catch up. Now, to be truly honest, I hate that I know the root of the problem, and still I somehow fall into the same trap. I am a perfectionist. If I am going to do something, I want to be able to give it 200%. So I end up taking on a project and making it 20 times harder than it needed to be. Then I get behind in other areas of work (usually in the department on cleaning), and it completely stresses me out to look at how much I need to do. And then I become so overwhelmed, that I physically can't seem to function to anything. Before I know it, I have company coming and I have to get my house cleaned, and clean it all at once. And the whole cycle starts again! I hate the feeling of getting behind but not being motivated to catch up and stay caught up.
     I KNOW that I need to take small steps, and allow myself to not be perfect, and just do little things to stay caught up instead of playing catch up all the time. But I hate that no matter how much I *know* this, I haven't been able to fix it yet. *Sigh* One of these days ....